Thursday, 30 April 2009

Introduction

Hello, My name's Arna Rut and i've recently been diognised with Asperger Syndrome.

I come from the small country Iceland, and there is only about 100-500 people or so that have this syndrome here, And well, i have to admit i'm one of them. But guess what? I'm proud of it.


Most of you wouldn't understand me, And us kids with Asperger Syndrome have social problems, but the internet makes communication easier for us. Some kid's with Asperger Syndrome hide it, - or try to. While others admit it and some even write books about how our life is.

This wont be all about Asperger, I'm just describing how my day's been and you will notice how i'm different from others. No i don't really have friends but hey, I have my family and while i have them i'm happy.


So, let's start writing about how today was, Its only about 12 pm so there hasnt much happened.

I woke up today at 8 am, Having to go to school at 9 since my Danish teacher decided to give us 1 hour break(Told us last monday). I ofcourse got ready, not wanting to go to school as usual... 500 people in one place is maybe to much for me, and i sometimes want to start yelling or even crying in the middle of the school, But i do my best not to.
When i went to the latest Danish class we were watching Video's , Watching my classmates making themself look like fools hahaha.
Then we went to geography and had an exam, The teacher forgetting about my problems in seeing stuff, and didnt notice that i couldnt see what she was writing on a white board, So all i wrote on the paper was "Couldnt see" and gave it to her.
She let us out 20 minutes early, so i went to floor 0 to wait for science/biology, that was like 40 minutes away. Me being there all alone made kids stare at me, Very uncomfturable! I tried to avoid eye contacts but those really freak me out.
When class started we were talking about certain movements that are very hard for me - since i have ADHD aswell, - then i heard my cousin/Classmate say "He's just an hyperactive dork" and as i'm hyperactive myself i got very angry but i tried to calm myself down, When my teacher heard her say that he changed the subject, He knows i have ADHD and he's well, the best teacher ever(and funny not to mention) When that class was over, i had Art left, being so angry and knowing i had two long classes with the worst teacher IN THE SCHOOL i ran off, I went about 1 or 2 KM way to try to get some fresh air to calm myself down.

And now i'm just sitting here. I'm not very happy right now, but im glad there is NO school tomorrow, its republic day so i get to stay home, YES! I hate being at school, i think everyone is always talking about me in a bad way, people avoid me all the time and i avoid them, and having a crazy stalker as a classmate(she literally doesnt leave me alone) and having a teacher thats like, going to kill me(She seriously watches my every move and doesnt leave me alone).

When will people get i just want to be alone?


....
Its now nearly 18:00, Ive been outsite with my mum and sister the whole day. Got some french fries, i think my family's really the only people i like being with..

4 comments:

Sophia Brivati said...

I have Aspergers too :S
School is very hard for me too, I only have 2 friends, and my family dont always understand.

OohLaLaHannah said...

I would say that I know how you feel, but I don't.
Thank you for an amazing reality check. Today I thought maybe failing my maths exam was the worst thing in the world but life goes on as you demonstrate so well.
xx

Sophia Brivati said...

Sorry, I got it wrong.
I have terretz and I cant socialize properley, not Aspergers :S

lla123456789 said...

Heey Arna.Life isn't always good to us.Honestly i hate myself too.I wanna lie and die too but that's not the solution.I don't have any friends so i am always alone.I'm really getting tired of it so i sometimes hang out with children of my mum's BF. :)

We can still be friends too,don't be sad,smile sometimes and you'll see that you can also have good,fun and amazing life not painful and hard :)

xoxo

Ella